Let me introduce myself. My name is Kelly, and I am a sugar addict.
We all know you can be addicted to sugar. We all know how bad it is for your body. We all know how it can cause sickness, fatigue, headaches, obesity…we live in America where sugar is in EVERYTHING. And it is delicious.
I like sweets. I like candy, cookies, cake, ice cream, and chocolate, like REALLY like them. Which is why I decided to quit. Well, not quit, quit. Just Monday-Friday quit.
I am an “all or nothing” kind of gal, when it comes to sweets. You know those people who claim you can eat anything, as long as it’s in moderation? They lie. There is no such thing as sweets-in-moderation for me.
I can’t just eat a piece of cake. I like to eat half the cake. When no one is watching, of course.
Or just one cookie. Nope, give me 4.
Or a little slither of a brownie. I’m talking about half the pan here! How do people eat just a slither??
And a whole pack of gum. Yep, it’s embarrassing.I don’t often do this, but I can easily.
I was eating some sort of sweet every day. I craved it, and it was so satisfying. I was becoming out of control (if not, already), I started to suffer from headaches, sore throat, and terrible congestion. I felt sick, gross, and I began to slowly gain weight and keep on those few extra lbs.
Once I start, stopping is too hard, so I’ve decided to just not start. I have to do it this way.
So how did I do it? Well, to be honest, I’m still doing it. I haven’t conquered the cravings, but I do find myself craving it less and less. The first step for me was to start drinking my coffee black. When there isn’t sugar and cream, you can actually taste the real flavor of the coffee…who knew?! I decided I had to start with my coffee, because this was the first substance I consumed every day. I needed to cut the craving out first thing. Black coffee wasn’t as fun, wasn’t as delicious, and not nearly as satisfying at first, but I stuck with it. After a few days, I grew accustomed to it, and I enjoy it now! Plus, I don’t feel guilty for adding all of the bad stuff.
I usually did fine with my addiction during the day, but it was at night after dinner that was the hardest. I basically have had to rewire my brain to not look for satisfaction in sweets. Cravings are hard, because they tell you if you consume what you crave, you will be satisfied. And usually you are, for a moment. I usually was…until the next morning. I reminded myself that the bowl of ice cream may momentarily satisfy me, but I will never be satisfied when I wake up in the morning. Sometimes I have to make myself go to bed in order to avoid the temptation because it is a constant battle, and I often have to divert my thoughts away from sweets.
Let me be clear. I am NOT telling you to stop eating sweets. This was just a personal decision I had to make in order to honor my convictions. And I am NOT saying a bowl of ice cream is bad. I am saying my lack of self-control and discipline is bad. I am saying the way I cannot stop thinking about sweets and need to eat them, is bad. I am saying that the fact I cannot refuse my own desires, that is bad. I am also NOT saying that I don’t eat sweets anymore! I just limit myself to the weekend (for now). And now that I am practicing self-control during the week, I find that on the weekends, I can stop with just one piece.
I also dropped 4 lbs in two weeks just from cutting out sweets during the week…which should show you how much I ate! Sometimes weight loss is a motivating factor, but I hope to focus more on the state of my health and my relationship with the Lord, than the size of my waist line. But I am a female, so I would be lying if I said I didn’t like it (just being real).
Cutting sweets is definitely a health issue, but for me, it was more of a heart issue. Recently the Lord has been revealing the details of my life that really distract me from displaying His character and knowing Him more deeply. I am really disciplined in some areas and then completely out of control in others (read: laundry). Self-control is a godly attribute that is often overlooked, but one that can affect so many other areas in our life too. It is a good thing! It’s our “self,” controlled. And how we need to be under control! We are too quick to think of our own needs and desires first, but if I begin to practice self-control in the small things, like eating sweets, I can slowly move towards a Gospel-centered view of self and others. The less I make of myself, the more room there is for Christ, and the less I listen and give into my own desires, the more I can obey and long for His desires.